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Rubikon
04:03
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I’m the dust on your table
I’m the fly in your cake
I’m the cut in your cable
I’m your belly ache
I know you crave it more
When they say you can’t have it
You’re peeking through the door
You’re circling my orbit
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I’m the gap in your puzzle
I’m your derailed train
I’m your dog that you muzzle
I’m the worm in your brain
So here’s to the freedom
That you choose to ignore
Locked in a kingdom
It shakes you to the core
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
(I wish you were here)
Don’t let them suck you in
(I wish you were here)
Their words are paper thin
(I wish you were here)
I’ll wait for you outside
(I wish you were here)
There’s no need to hide
(I wish you were here)
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Invisible Doors
03:46
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Untraceable dividing lines
Lid on tight, lid on tight
My eyes, they twitch
My tongue is tied
Safe inside, safe inside
It’s not right
It’s not right
Out of sight, I’m a fish out of water
My thoughts are leaving through invisible doors
No oxygen
A fear of heights
Let me in, let me in
My stomachs sick
Mouth full of mice
Giving in, I’m giving in
It’s not right
It’s not right
Out of sight, I’m a fish out of water
My thoughts are leaving through invisible doors
It’s not right
It’s not right
Out of sight, I’m a fish out of water
My thoughts are leaving through invisible doors
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Been making all appearances
Weed and wine, my weaknesses
All I see in front of me, a mist
Cancel all the plans we’ve made
The clothes don’t fit, I wanna fade
Disappear and take no shape
Was it worth it
Was I even there
Why am I trying to turn my face into yours
I’m not you
These fucking mirrors are everywhere
Distorted eyes, a static air
I disappear and take no shape
Was it worth it
Was I even there
Why am I trying to turn my face into yours
I’m not you
I’m not them
I’m not you
I’m not them
Was it worth it
Was I even there
Why am I trying to turn my face into yours
Thought I blended in, so underground
But my speaking voice, a thundercloud
And why am I trying to turn my face into yours
I’m not you
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Neon Spots Swirling
04:29
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Hiding up in the chandeliers
Weeping next to the volunteers
I evacuate to the corners of my mind
Forgetting names, all the awkward glances
I feel the eyes on the back of my neck
I seep into the wall
The neon spots are swirling in my mind
And I’m so tired of losing myself all the time
Talking to the coffee table
Party favors, party gestures
Your words come at me like a swarm of bees
Replicating, complicating
Empty patterns, empty patterns
Part the clouds inside
The neon spots are swirling in my mind
And I’m so tired of losing my shit all the time
I hit the bottom of the swimming pool
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Amicable Weather
05:32
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Nothings wrong out here in Pleasantville today
Sprinklers on the lawn and your savior on display
Is it who you are
Is it really who you want to be
You’re floating on a cloud
Did you ever really care for me
You’re living a nightmare
A whitewashed hideout
While you’re smiling with a mouth of glass
And you ask, “isn’t it lovely weather we’re having”
And you’re waving
I see right through you
I see through you
I see you
You
Nothings wrong out here in Pleasantville today
The preachers on TV and your mistress on the way
Did you make believe it all
Was there any reluctancy
A veneered faded crown
Did you really want my company
You’re living a nightmare
A whitewashed hideout
While you’re smiling with a mouth of glass
And you ask, “isn’t it lovely weather we’re having”
And you’re waving
I see right through you
I see through you
I see you
You
I really wish you the very best
Is there something to get off your chest
I really wish you the best
I guess it’s nothing that you’ll regret
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(Doomloop)
01:18
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Portals
04:16
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Float to me
Then you’ll see
My brain’s held up by kites
No, I don’t think I feel right
Dizzy spells
Ringing bells
And I drive right through the wall
No, I’m just not here at all
I had one foot in the universe
And I get so close sometimes
You left through a portal in my mind
And I can’t let you drift away this time
Choke the sun
Lights out, poison
Something I can’t put my finger on
No, I can’t even explain. I’m done
I had one foot in the universe
And I get so close sometimes
You left through a portal in my mind
And I can’t let you drift away this time
I dreamt you disappeared
Quiet in the night
I dreamt you disappeared
Quiet in the night
Gone
Have you gone
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Strange Calm
03:48
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The strangest calm inside
When I’m given everything I want all the time
A limitless divine
In any color, any shape, so sublime
Do I choose all that I see
Stripped of mystery
Nothing to myself
A different kind of hell
I know, it’s all gonna blow at anytime
The strangest calm outside
When I’m sending up all I’ve got to the sky
Are my thoughts really my own
Am I any less alone
Hurts the more I think
In and out of sync
I know, it’s all gonna blow
Yeah I know, it’s all gonna blow
At anytime
I take a gasp of air and close my eyes
I feel it caving in
Ready to begin
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So Clearly
04:23
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Thought I laid it down
I put it to rest
I see it now
Coming up for air
Through the surface
It’s in the blood
It’s in the blood
Now, I see so clearly
Now, I see so clearly
That you never left me
The numbing winds
The countless days and nights
I don’t fear it now
I don’t fear it now
And I see so clearly
Now, I see so clearly
That you never left me
Now, I see so clearly
Now, I see so clearly
That you never left me
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Half-Moon Worry Lines
03:40
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There’s cement clouds forming in your mind
It won’t be long before you forget them
Forget all that you’ve been through
Your half-moon worry lines
Your sorrows you’ll leave behind
When darkness encircles, please know I would pull you out
Give it time
Just give it time
I dreamt you disappeared
You cashed in all of tries
It’s foolish to think that they’re worth it
Don’t give up your ghost
Give it time
Just give it time
It was not your fault
They’ll be buried in salt
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Flowermouth
04:34
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You’re a flowermouth
Fragrant words bloom out
Nothing toxic
In a forest made of eyes
You would walk on by
Like no one’s watching
And I’m under your spell
In a fluorescent hell
I’m under your spell
Swimming in oil spills
You’re perfect
You’re my TV show
Pragmatic queer magic shit
I bawl my eyes out
And I’m under your spell
In a job that kills
I’m under your spell
Swallowing happy pills
I’m under your spell
In a fluorescent hell
I’m under your spell
Swimming in oil spills
You’re perfect
So perfect
No oppressive force could tear us up
My love, my love
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Trevor James Tillery Nashville, Tennessee
New album, I Dreamt You Disappeared, out now
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